John 19: 1–37
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May the words of my mouth and the meditations of our hearts be
acceptable in thy sight, O Lord our strength and our redeemer. Amen.
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We call this Friday ‘good’, but honestly, most of the time,
I think we struggle to remember what is good about it. For today
is a day of sorrows for the man acquainted with grief, for the one who
had done no violence. And on some level I think every one of us
wishes we could avoid this day. Maybe it’s because we
don’t want to see someone we love suffer. Maybe it’s
because we ourselves feel helpless in the face of Roman soldiers,
dressed to intimidate in silver helmets and scarlet tunics, their
swords flashing in the light of the torches. Or maybe it’s
because we too would hesitate to stand up to wily Temple officials, so
wise in their own estimation. But maybe it’ also because
we know, deep down, that we ourselves are implicated in his
death. As Isaiah puts it, “All we like sheep have gone
astray . . . and the Lord hath laid on
him the iniquity of us all.”
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Whatever our reasons, we’re not alone in our desire to avoid this
day. Jesus’ own disciples deserted him on the night Judas
betrayed him in the olive grove they called Gethsemane. They
turned tail and ran, looking for any place of safety in a world that
had suddenly turned against them.
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To be fair, Simon Peter tried to stay close to him that night, going
with the mob of soldiers and Temple police to the palace of Caiaphas,
the high priest. But even he, finally, got scared when one of the
High Priests servant girls recognized him as one of the
disciples. In response, just as Jesus had foretold earlier in
the evening, Peter panicked and denied he ever knew the man. Then,
realizing what he had done, he fled.
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So by the time Jesus was marched to Pontius Pilate’s headquarters,
no one who loved him was by his side. Even on Golgotha,
where they finally crucified him, he was alone – except for his
mother, her face dissolving in grief. She stood there with a few
friends and one single disciple. These few, standing at some
distance from the cross, were the only ones he had with him in his
final hours of agony.
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But even that wasn’t the worst. The worst was his sense of
being deserted by his own heavenly Father. He had prayed in
Gethsemane with all his heart, until his sweat turned to blood, that
the Father would spare him the ordeal he knew was coming. But the only
voice he heard back was his own. Then again, on the cross, he
prayed for a word, any word of comfort or support. Once
again all he heard in return was silence. And it was in that
silence that he died, wondering if he’d been forsaken by God.
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What are we to make of this – a son asking for bread and
receiving instead a stone? Is this, perhaps, the deepest
reason we wish we could avoid this day? Is it that we
know – at least from time to time – that same silence in
response to our own prayers? Surely that silence is part of
what makes this day painful.
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But I’ve never been able to believe that God the Father, God our
loving heavenly Father, utterly deserted his Son in his hour of
greatest need. It just doesn’t agree with what I know about
the God and Father of us all. Surely, surely, God made some
response to the disciples’ fervent prayers, to Mary, his
mother’s agonized pleas, to his own beloved Son’s
appeals. Didn’t he? And if he did, wouldn’t he
please show me?
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I finally received an answer to these questions a few years ago when
my husband and I were visiting an old monastery site in
Ireland. Clonmacnoise has always been known in Ireland as one of
those ‘thin places’, where the door between this world and
the next cracks open now and again, spreading God’s light on all
who want to receive it. And on this day that light flooded my
soul in a most unexpected way.
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Because this site is revered in Ireland as a ‘thin place’,
over the centuries many people have been buried in the green monastery
graveyard that slopes down to meet the River Shannon. And over
their burial sites they have erected tall stone Celtic crosses
delicately carved with Biblical scenes and Celtic motifs. These
tall stone crosses are themselves quite beautiful; and in an effort
to protect them from the ravages of air pollution, some of them have
been removed into a museum on the site, where each one can be displayed
in the center of its own room, with lighting that enhances the carving
on their stone faces.
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I was particularly taken with one tall sandstone cross, standing in its
own circular room. First, I admired the biblical scenes delicately
carved on its front, the four apostles on the circle around the cross,
and the figure of Christ, a simple shepherd, at its center. But
then I moved around to the side of the cross and saw the lovely
tree–of̫life pattern carved all the way up its shaft. My
eyes followed this pattern of intertwining vines upward where I was
surprised to realize that they extended underneath the arms of the
cross. And they ended — not as you would expect in a leaf
or a flower – but in a human hand, stretched outward on the
underside of the cross arm. And then I gasped. For coming
out from each thumb and finger of those hands was a thin stone
ridge – to indicate rays of light. These weren’t
human hands. These were divine hands. These
were the hands of God – supporting the cross, supporting his Son
all the way through his ordeal.
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As I realized what I was seeing something Frederick Buechner once said
came to mind. He said, “To sacrifice something is to make
it holy by giving it away for love.” God had given his Son
away – out of love for us – to make us holy.
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Maybe – on this day — that is why we can call this
Friday ‘good’.
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Amen.
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